The Princess and the Pea

My daughter Maya sleeps in my painting studio. In the evenings I kiss her goodnight though she is 21. Maybe mothers always do that. I pass my hand over her forehead like I have done since she was a small child. Her brow no longer needs to be unstitched though. Her forehead is smooth. She is at peace, or just tired.

When I peek into the room it is often still early; she is either lying in the dark or finishing a movie, laptop propped upon her bent knees, on top of the blankets. One of them is a Pepto-Bismol-pink uncovered comforter. I suggested putting a cover on it but she resisted – and I suspect it’s more than laziness. It’s a down comforter that I have had since my single days. I used it uncovered myself because I didn’t know yet about comforter covers, in my 20’s, sleeping alone after my married lover had left for the night. My mother died too soon in my life to give me advice about what kinds of sheets to get, let alone what kind of men to date. I didn’t even know about putting bleach in a wash until after I had my own children. It had felt luxurious, buying that comforter, cover or not. The other blanket is dense cotton, a flat pale blue. My then-husband and I had gotten it for one of our earlier beds. Maya doesn’t want a sheet either; she prefers to sleep directly under both of these artifacts.

Once upon a time there was a prince who wanted to marry a princess; but she would have to be a real princess. He travelled all over the world to find one, but nowhere could he get what he wanted. There were princesses enough, but it was difficult to find out whether they were real ones. There was always something about them that was not as it should be. So he came home again and again and was sad, for he would have liked very much to have a real princess.

The pull-out sofa she sleeps on is stiff, a cheap Ikea model, steel-gray, a pole running through the length. She keeps it open, untidied. It doesn’t pay for her to redo the couch every day since I am not working in the studio right now. She says she doesn’t feel the pole, but I think she is telling me a white lie. I believe she feels it, but doesn’t want me to think she is uncomfortable.

One evening a terrible storm came on; there was thunder and lightning, and the rain poured down in torrents. Suddenly a knocking was heard at the city gate, and the old king went to open it.

She has set herself up in my studio because she does not want to revisit her past by sleeping in her bedroom again; I sleep in her room. She does not want to sleep in her brother’s old room, either, for fear it would signal some kind of permanence, or normalcy. In his room, the chestnut platform bed sits bare except for a white mattress-cover, and her cat who snoozes on the satiny surface. From the outside, it is ridiculous that she doesn’t sleep there. She has no real memories in that bedroom. Three of the six dresser drawers are empty. Luna, her cat, is already warming the bed. But even that, she explained, would imply that she was settling back in, which I interpreted as meaning that she would not be the different, newly hatched creature she needs to be.

It was a princess standing out there in front of the gate. But, good gracious! what a sight the rain and the wind had made her look. The water ran down from her hair and clothes; it ran down into the toes of her shoes and out again at the heels. And yet she said that she was a real princess.

Sleeping in her bedroom would, she fears, mean she is still the girl who dwelled inside the four walls of her rape. She would be encircled, again, by the rape. Instead, she sleeps within the womb of my paintings. For now, she is neither the Maya of her earlier years nor a freshly revealed being. She waits within this multi-hued, slightly oily-smelling space, an in-between time. Paintings of every size lean against the walls surrounding her. At night, she peers over the edge of her laptop to the angles of honey-wood stretcher-bars that frame whatever she watches. She sleeps amidst work from the different times of my life as an artist; she sleeps within my past, next to visions whose original meanings are largely forgotten, or are irrelevant.

“Well, we’ll soon find that out,” thought the old queen. But she said nothing, went into the bed-room, took all the bedding off the bedstead, and laid a pea on the bottom; then she took twenty mattresses and laid them on the pea, and then twenty eider-down beds on top of the mattresses.

She also sleeps next to a triptych that still pulses with its violent story: a painting of a rape. They hang one next to the other just above the couch bed, not turned to the wall. When I go into the room at night, I see her face illuminated by the computer’s glow. And, in that technological twilight, those paintings. What is exposed during the day: the tangle of bedding and the rape paintings; a painting of bodies on a raft done when we were figuring out how to survive; a painting I did of my middle-aged belly – a drawing of my son as an enraged adolescent glued to the upper-right corner. Nights, the rambunctious images slumber, save the rape paintings, which catch the glow of streetlights long after her laptop has been shut.

On this the princess had to lie all night. In the morning she was asked how she had slept.

She sleeps by this shared history that will always, likely, remain crepuscular. I painted the rape triptych towards the end of the legal procedure following the charges she pressed against the rapist. The case now over, we are back home; she sleeps within my work like a fetus; she percolates not in my body but in my work, in the body of my work. She didn’t move back home; she moved into my work.

“Oh, very badly!” said she. “I have scarcely closed my eyes all night. Heaven only knows what was in the bed, but I was lying on something hard, so that I am black and blue all over my body. It’s horrible!”

There is a small glass-topped desk beneath two corner windows, just behind the side of the bed where she places her head. A pile of computer paper leans Pisa-like to the left of the rolling chair, another stack on top of the glass, another stuffed into the shelf underneath. They are all drafts of my recent memoir, about the rape from my – the mother’s – perspective. Maya sleeps next to all of it. Scattered pages blow off the most recent version when she opens the window before bed, littering the floor. White tiles speckled with type. She leaves them, the fanned paper making a half-halo seen from above, as she sleeps, waiting for either the full to arrive or the vanishing of the half.

Now they knew that she was a real princess because she had felt the pea right through the twenty mattresses and the twenty eider-down beds.

Maya graduated from college last May, after finding out that she lost the case. Her valises line the wall where I normally prop my paintings while working. Clothing drapes across suitcases and boxes. One splayed heap is a collaged dirty-laundry mix of jeans, a blue striped sleep-shirt, beige linen pants, a teal turtleneck. Against the wall behind that jumble is a roll of paper on which I began a drawing. It also waits. I called this work an “infinite drawing” two springs ago, when I began it, implying that I would work on it forever – that it would never be done. They are both incubating, Maya and the drawing. Last week one of her new white t-shirts got charcoal on it that doesn’t seem to wash out. There’s always something on the floor that stains clothing. It is all infinite in this room, which is maybe the real reason Maya has moved in. She is surrounded with the kind of love artists learn to gel into paintings. She can’t stay there forever, but she can borrow it, the room and the infinite looking, for a while. And I can wait until she’s ready to move out. The bed I use in her old room has a fairly new hybrid memory-foam mattress. It is the most comfortable bed in the apartment, and I have a sore back.

Nobody but a real princess could be as sensitive as that.

Initially, she had brought the standing mirror from her old room into the studio, and leaned it against the framed edge of a portrait of her brother. Whenever I noticed, I inched it away from the painting, but would find it there again after a few days. Last night it was back in her bedroom. She might be getting ready to leave. Or maybe she doesn’t need to see herself any more.

So the prince took her for his wife, for now he knew that he had a real princess; and the pea was put in the museum, where it may still be seen, if no one has stolen it.

Maya says she has never been happier than the time she has been sleeping in my studio. This time of her deepest sleep, after the end of the rape case. She doesn’t shut the shades, so the morning sun helps rouse her. It – the case – and she – remain preserved in amber light, until she wakes looking out over the supplies I use to make new worlds.

There. That is a true story.


Karen Kaapcke

is an award-winning visual artist whose work is included in many private collections. She has exhibited broadly, both in the US and Europe. Notable awards include first–place for self-portrait at the Portrait Society of America, and finalist for the prestigious BP Portrait Award, where her painting was exhibited at the National Portrait Gallery, London. She recently completed a memoir about mothering her daughter through a rape, subsequent illnesses, a trial in France, and both of their recoveries. Karen maintains studios in New York City and France. More about her painting can be found at www.karenkaapcke.weebly.com


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A Journey to the Past

Throughout my childhood I had the pleasure of experiencing the diversity of two different worlds.

I lived in a busy Brooklyn apartment complex during the school year, and the courtyard was a hive of activity as neighbors played games and laughed. But summers were spent in the tranquil Catskills, where sleep-away camp provided the peaceful splendor of lakes and forests. The rural peace and metropolitan energy shaped me. I was automatically drawn to stories that echoed these themes of discovery and community.

As a child, I was a devoted reader, diving into books whenever I could. Free from the constant distractions of today, I immersed myself fully in the stories before me. While I read anything I could get my hands on, I was especially drawn to novels about characters searching for their identity and purpose. A well-crafted narrative had the power to pull me in completely, forging a deep connection to the protagonist and making their journey feel like my own.

In preparation for my debut book, A Flag for Juneteenth, I delved deeply into the history of slavery in America. My research included reading extensively, listening to podcasts, and examining online archives. Among the materials I discovered, a photograph of a young girl from the Library of Congress resonated profoundly with me. Her image seemed to embody the spirit of my heroine, and she became a guiding inspiration as I crafted the character’s personality and narrative. These resources allowed me to envision the lives, struggles, and resilience of those who endured this harrowing period in history.

I wanted my main character’s name to be distinctive, something unfamiliar to readers. I imagined her as a prophetic figure, someone who could witness the historic moment of slavery’s legal end in America while also symbolizing a hopeful vision of a future free from bondage. In my search for inspiration, I looked up biblical female prophets and came across an image of a striking Black woman named Huldah. The name immediately felt right, it perfectly captured the essence of my character.

Huldah’s baby sister, Eve, also has a meaningful biblical name. Derived from the Hebrew word for “to breathe” or “to live,” it reflects her future as a child born into a world no longer bound by the chains of enslavement.

Another named character in the story is Mr. Menard, the oldest man on the plantation. His surname comes from Michel B. Menard, the first plantation owner in Galveston, Texas, where the story takes place. Including this detail felt important to me, as it highlights how enslaved people were often stripped of their identities and given the names of their enslavers, severing ties to their own family histories.

I wanted to find a way to engage young readers with a historical event that is often overlooked in schools and connect them to a time so different from their own. To do this, I decided to begin the story with an experience many children can relate to: the excitement of an upcoming birthday. My main character, Huldah, is a thoughtful and mature girl with a deep sense of responsibility. She spends her days caring for her baby sister while her parents toil on the plantation.

Readers meet Huldah on the day before her 10th birthday, which that year fell on a Sunday. Sundays were precious, a time for rest and for families to gather and reconnect. On this particular day, Huldah’s mother makes her favorite tea cakes in honor of her birthday, a rare treat that the demands of plantation life wouldn’t allow during the busy workweek.

The characters in my book are intentionally faceless, a choice made to encourage readers to imagine themselves in the story and form a personal connection with the narrative. My hope is that this approach deepens the emotional resonance of the story, making its themes and history more relatable and impactful.

I take immense pride in illustrating this book through quilting, a storytelling tradition passed down by my ancestors. As I designed each illustration, I carefully considered how to bring the text to life and decided which elements needed extra emphasis. For instance, the opening page mentions tea cakes, a simple yet cherished treat made by enslaved people using basic pantry ingredients. I wanted readers to see and imagine these tea cakes, so I recreated them with a piece of brown fabric from my collection, chosen for its subtle color variations. Although modest in appearance, tea cakes were rich in flavor and aroma, so I added hand-embroidered details to depict the scent drifting through the air.

The entire process of creating the illustrations took over a year. It was a monumental and deeply emotional undertaking. Since the characters in the story are faceless, I had to find alternative ways to convey Huldah’s personality and ensure she was recognizable across each scene. Achieving this consistency on such a small scale with fabric presented unique challenges. At times, Huldah felt so real to me that I told a friend she had become like a daughter. The connection I developed with her as a character was profound, and it made the journey of creating this book even more meaningful.

When teaching about this painful chapter in American history, it’s essential to illuminate the strength, resilience, and beauty of African and African American people during their enslavement. Equally important is highlighting the vital role that family and community played in their lives, a foundation that endured through incredible hardship and remains significant today.

As educators, we must go beyond the narrative of forced labor to explore what life was like during moments of rest and connection. Despite the oppressive conditions, enslaved people worked tirelessly to maintain bonds with their families and build a sense of community. By presenting them as fully realized individuals with hopes, relationships, and humanity, we foster empathy in young readers. This approach helps them recognize shared experiences rather than focus solely on differences, sparking a deeper curiosity about this pivotal period in American history.


Kim Taylor

is a speech language pathologist and Department Supervisor at a large school for deaf children. She is also an expert quilter whose works have been exhibited at several venues throughout the Mid-Atlantic region. Kim’s quilts reflect African American life, and she tells stories through her materials. After researching the origins of the Juneteenth celebration, she created a Juneteenth story quilt, which she has exhibited and presented in dozens of local schools. Realizing that many teachers and students were unaware of the holiday, she was moved to write this book. She lives in Baldwin, New York. 

To see more of Kim’s quilts, visit her website at MaterialGirlStoryQuilts.com


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TALES AND TRAVAILS FROM A NOT-YET-DEAD POET

Stories- we’re fascinated by them…stories of people, places, indelible traces…

…What was that song -you know the one I mean-

from “back in the day” - that song which still

occasionally drifts into YOUR head even today- like

the smiling ghost of an old friend- and you still

remember those lyrics all these years later - and you

feel that nostalgic twinge - of those ol’

“warm’n’fuzzies”…?

What was your song??

Chances are, those lyrics - of “your song” - were

performed - in Poetic Form!

In a nutshell THAT’S the Power of Poetry - what’s

said - and HOW- it’s read…can create an impression

in your mind.

Like most, I didn’t start out on my journey by

dreaming of becoming a Performance Poet…

Hardly.

And if you’re like me, your “education” about the

spoken word likely began early…

My Mom could affectionately whisper my name “Jim”

in such a sweet way that I’d feel like the best-behaved

Little Boy on the planet…

Or…she could ear-splittingly screech “JIM” on those

rare occasions, almost curling the paint on the walls,

when my Devilish nature took over- and I “allegedly”

misbehaved…!

Inflection 101.

In school, do you remember- as I do - that teacher

who made the lesson “come alive”- and pique your

interest in an otherwise hopelessly dull subject?

…And - that “other” instructor, whose low monotone

would almost make you prefer the nerve-jangling

sounds of fingernails -excruciatingly clawing their way

down -that scarred, tortured blackboard?

Inflection 201.

I’d learn more about inflection- and the necessity of

speaking & writing concisely- precisely - in my short

stint as a Newspaper Reporter in the now-defunct

Hartford Times in the mid-70’s…

A year out of College, there I’d be, agonizingly taking

notes during 4-hour local Planning & Zoning

Commission meetings - listening to some dreary

Politico take 10 minutes to drone on about his

mundane musings - which he easily could’ve wrapped

up in 2…

At that point, I knew…if I ever got my hands on a

microphone - I vowed “Don’t Be That Guy”…

To this day, I keep reminding myself…”You still love

groovin’ to the Allman Bros “Ramblin’ Man” - but

unless you can play guitar like Dicky Betts- (and I

can’t) don’t be one yourself”!

Be Clear & Concise - 101.

Back then I also began working in my first love-

Radio- at WCCC-FM - a Rock station - where I

rubbed elbows with a rising young talent- 24-year-old

Howard Stern.

During his year-plus in Hartford, Howard was evolving

- turbocharging his career - almost from the Clark-

Kent-like mediocrity when he first began - to

Superman status toward the end of his meteoric reign

in Hartford. Shortly before he moved up to the top-tier

markets, I saw him onstage at a huge concert venue -

where most of us exposure-craving DJ’s would

eagerly jump at the chance to stand in front of the

throngs of fans- and bring on the headliner…

But with the spotlight momentarily on him- Howard

didn’t do what most other jocks did- excitedly

announce the list of other shows “coming soon” to the

City…instead - he only bellowed out these three

words…

“I’M HOWARD STERN”

…and the fans in that sold-out Civic Center unleashed

a deafening roar…

Stage-presence - Postgraduate Level.

During my radio years, I sold advertising full time, and

pulled part-time air shifts too…

Had plenty of fun spinning the tunes- but carrying on

a conversation by yourself on mic is an acquired, yet

elusive art… and since I couldn’t captivate an

audience like Howard Stern could, the Bombastic

Boss kept exhorting me to - in so many encouraging

words - “Shut up and play the hits!!”

In selling to clients, on the other hand, I drew upon my

experience as a reporter…each had their own story-

and the more questions I could ask them - the better

I’d do - and success would usually follow.

Early in my career, I’d write the ad copy for some of

the smaller businesses myself - as creatively as I

could within the 30 or 60 second commercial “walls”-

while still working on the essentials like the name,

location, products - all that fun stuff!

And for that matter, writing Newspaper stories was

another exercise in brevity- for news coverage, you

get to the meat of the matter- and write at an easily-

understood Grammar School level. When the story is

complex- boil it down!!

I much preferred feature writing, where I could

interview, then flesh out their story with personal

anecdotes …but those opportunities were relatively

few.

During election season, we’d read the press releases

sent in by the local candidates for office - hoping we’d

publish…

Now, I always looked at writing as a “life skill”- almost

like breathing…and since I could functionally breathe

and write- I assumed nearly everyone else could,

too…

Then, I started reading a few of the mangled “Press

Releases” sent into the second-largest Newspaper in

Connecticut on behalf of these local candidates…

Silently shaking my head, I’d mumble…”OK- so- not

“EVERYONE” - can write!!”

Be Clear & Concise. 201

Many years later, I moved on to selling billboard

advertising for a large corporation- Lamar Adv. Co.

Occasionally, we’d get email communiques from

Corporate HQ in Baton Rouge- directly from the CEO

- and his messages were astonishingly simple…

Rather than show off his Mighty Corporate Stature or

his Elite Harvard University Education, he was laser-

focused on delivering an easy-to-understand

Directive- leaving no room for ambiguity or

misinterpretation. He’d make HIS words- count!

Less…IS More…

Be Clear & Concise. Post-Graduate Level

After retiring, I eventually dusted off my pen and

joined a local Writer’s Group and we Zoomed

through the Pandemic. Now sometimes, ANY Zoom

Meeting can be like Root Canal without the Novocain,

so I tried to spare The Group that agony - with fast-

paced story-writing, provocatively igniting, tried to be

engaging -occasionally enraging - and as entertaining

as possible…and since I DON’T play the Guitar…no

rambling!

Occasionally, I’d write in verse…then one day, I heard

about this group- The Shore Poets- with live Open

Mic sessions in the Long Beach NY Library…

And suddenly…all these “lessons” I’d been learning-

all came together!!

My poetic stories can be brief & whimsical…30

seconds for

“Catfish me- my real-life fantasy”…”she doesn’t care

about our 50-year age gap- swore to me so as she

slid down her strap”…

A different story- can be a wee bit longer - like my

dubious “Poets Guide to filing your Taxes”…laced

with a few improbable scenarios!

Yet another takes you through the real-life story of the

Incan “Ice Maiden” - a young teenager sacrificed to

the gods 500 years ago- pondering all the family and

village dynamics which led to her bearing the curse of

becoming “the chosen one”…to save everyone she

knew…

But it doesn’t end there- for her remains were

famously discovered in 1995, studied, and she would

subsequently “teach us volumes, without uttering a

word- your mitochondrial DNA was so well-

preserved”…

And - if given the fateful choice- would she have

chosen…

…”To reappear in 500 years- like a Sleeping BEAUTY

And posthumously feted - like a STAR IN A MOVIE

Or - would you have chosen a life of obscurity

Lived & died with the rest - in anonymous

tranquility”…

I titled it “Girl of the Andes.” This poem is a 5-minute

soliloquy, and it’s patterned after the iconic “Green

Fields Of France”, where the hiker sits by the

gravestone of a fallen WW1 soldier - reflecting on the

soldier’s earlier life -the state of the world which

caused his demise- and the ensuing carnage which

the soldier likely sacrificed his life to prevent - but is

still happening to this day.

Poetry, I’ve found, exists in life itself- and virtually

ANY story can be remade into poetic form…

Lately, I’ve focused on parody songwriting- with a

humorously jabbing Political twist.

Now- Politics aside for the moment (I promise)-

I’ve found parody writing to be a complete paradox.

On one hand, the songwriters I’ve borrowed from-

Dylan, Bowie, Billy Joel, Gil Scott Heron & others-

have penned unforgettable melodies & lyrics for the

ages -THEY’VE done the heavy lifting for you- and

when you’re on stage, borrowing those melodies and

mimicking their inflections- your connection to the

audience can be Electric!!

On the other hand, their lyrics are often amazingly

simple in their brilliance- which makes them so

accessible- and beloved…

BUT- as a parody writer- you’ve got to write your

lyrics within the confines of their melodic “walls” …

For instance, if their line is 10 words - you can’t jam in

18 words- or try to stretch out 6…

And if they’re at 23 syllables- can can’t cram in 35…or

slide by with 12…

AND…borrowing a beloved melody pushes you to a

far higher standard of accountability with the crowd. If

your words fall flat - if your intended meaning goes

splat- the ensuing audience’s moans and groans will

make you want to crawl under a rock…and there are

simply no rocks to hide under - from the glaring lights

on stage!!

So - it’s an easy-sounding- yet elevated challenge -

but when you make that Electric Connection- the

crowd goes nuts.

I’ve recorded a number of my politically- acerbic

parodies & posted them on YouTube & Tik Tok. Now,

since virtually no one would recognize my real name,

I created a Brand- “The Grouchy Grandpa Channel”

as my platform.

This is a pure hobby for me- and since I’m not

attempting to make any money off this, what I do is

legally considered “Fair Use” (DISCLAIMER-I’m not

an Attorney- nor do I play one on TV- so please- don’t

take this as “Legal Advice” -from me!!)

Throughout my life experiences, I’ve found there are

only 3 ways to speak…

You can speak AT someone…

You can speak TO someone

Or…you can speak WITH someone…

Now…if you’re on the receiving end…which way -

would YOU prefer to be engaged??

Whenever I’m performing poetry onstage, I try to

make it feel like a one-on-one convo with a good

friend - sharing a story and a good reaction…

And lastly…CHEATING…

Admit it…you cheat!

Remember when you’d cheat

- with a taste of that forbidden sweet?

How about that extra swig from that frosty cold

brew??

Or- when you lopped off that one promised loop in

your exercise regimen?

Or that time Uncle Sam would’ve furrowed his brow -

if he only knew about that piece of fudge oozing out of

your tax return…??

Whether your cheating involves the fallacious,

voracious, or the salacious (and spare us your sordid

details)...you cheat!

Everyone cheats…and yes…I cheat, too.

Whenever I write Poetry, I cheat (and not with that

creepy AI stuff, either)...

I can make every line rhyme - and I usually do…even

when my story touches the 8-minute mark.

No - I’m not a walking Thesaurus…I’m more like a

lumbering Brontosaurus…

but whenever I’m stuck for a word I whip out the App

“RhymeZone”

It’s a gold mine of ideas - and it & bailed me out of

countless jams…

And when I absolutely, positively can’t find a word to

rhyme, I simply change the line - and end with a

different word…that shines!

Rhyme Zone - try it yourself, and you’ll be well on

your way - to earning your PhD - in Poetry.

Cheating - Doctorate Level

Everyone has a story…

…and that’s Mine!

Thanks for your Time!

Oh- and here’s my YouTube Link to The Grouchy

Grandpa Channel…

…and about my earlier-stated promise of “Politics

Aside”? …

Well, Sorry, Mate -

It had an expiration date!

https://youtube.com/@grouchygrandpa-vt5og?si=nebSVwX1YWwV6DYZ

Performance Poet and Digital Creator Jim Coulter

weaves tales of the whimsical, ethereal, satirical, political, and often hysterical. Jim has been published in several Anthologies, and also photographs “ Poetry In Nature” along the shoreline of Long Beach NY. Follow Jim on the “Grouchy Grandpa Channel” on YouTube and Tik Tok.


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Very Gerry

I hail from North Jersey, where as a mere cherub, I began entertaining at the age of 3. It all started with Three Stooges routines in our family living room. My dad tried sports with me, but come on - I knew it wasn’t my thing because I knew I was much too fabulous for them! So, what does any other normal boy do? Join a theatre class! At age 9, I was introduced to the Merry World of Musical Theatre and did it simultaneously with my schooling. Some of my favorite and challenging roles were Edna (Hairspray), Horton (Seussical), Lord Farquaad (Shrek) and Jeff (Title Of Show).

A couple of years after graduating high school, my GSA (Gay Straight Alliance) advisor asked me to come in and chat with his club members! I planned out a pop-up performance and Q&A session. It was one of the best moments, as the kids really enjoyed what I presented! During the Q&A, one of the students asked me the infamous question, “What would you say to someone who wants to be an actor one day?” I froze for a second but then answered, “If you can see yourself doing ANYTHING other than acting, do that. It’s not an easy thing to break into, but if you cannot see yourself doing anything else but being a performer, do that.”

The summer after high school ended, I began professionally working in New York and was seen on CBS and E! News for my work in the Off-Broadway show Totally Tubular Time Machine starring Debbie Gibson. Then, I went along and created my debut solo cabaret show, “Very Gerry,” that played famous cabaret clubs like Don’t Tell Mama, Metropolitan Room and Paul Colby’s The Bitter End. Since then, I have hosted, starred in, and created many cabaret performances all over the country. In 2017 I conceived and co-starred in “The Golden Gays TM LLC,” a hilarious camp tribute to TV’s The Golden Girls and it was seen by thousands of people from all over the world! I created the troupe in June 2017 and concluded my almost 7 year run as “The Rose”, on December 9th 2023. Even though I am not a part of my creation anymore, I do think that “The Golden Gays” hit at the right time in my life. I think it was because of so many pop culture elements coming into one! With the success of RuPaul’s Drag Race and the nostalgia of The Golden Girls, it was kismet. I wrote a letter to Betty White during quarantine and told her that the role that she originated and created, got me my first NYC apartment. The timing was right and we had a great run. I am very thankful!

“I am a self-proclaimed Character Actor. An actor who usually plays older than they really are; male or female-presenting characters.”

Since the start of 2024, I have been building my venue connections, currently booking/touring my solo “Drag Bingo” and Impersonation show, “Divas in my Mind”, that pay homage to the ladies of Old Hollywood. I am also cultivating my new project for streaming services called “The Very Gerry Variety Hour.” It’s a love letter to Vaudeville and The Carol Burnett Show. I can be seen performing throughout Florida with Drag Events Unlimited, led by the national entertainer Nicole Halliwell. The works include tours of “Hocus Pocus Live” and “Stay Golden A Golden Girls Tribute Show.” Over 15 consecutive SOLD OUT shows nationally, that perform in regional sized theaters!

“Did you know that I once reminded someone of Madeline Kahn? It’s true and that was one of the best things that ever happened to me in my career!”

I have been very fortunate that some of my original works and tributes have been seen on CNN, Reelz, OK!, ABC, The New York Times, Disney, Celebrity Cruises, CBS, E! News, National conventions, ABC 7 Eyewitness News, and the Associated Press. Being a professional performer and working in the Theatre can be a very strange yet rewarding life. What I mean by that is the fact that one day you can be on top of the world, working every day; then down in the dumps and being unemployed for months and months. Since I really began with the lashes and heels in 2012, I have learned that the first thing you need is your health. Mental and physical. The second thing you need is your support system, whether it be family or chosen family. One cannot succeed in show business without a solid form of acceptance and support!

“Performing is my oxygen. I need to make people feel something!”

I never knew it would take zillions of gigs, 12 jobs, and $500 headshots every 5 years but I cannot see myself fighting for anything else. Every single day you have to play 10 different parts in the small business that is YOUR ACTING CAREER. Not all of us are as lucky as Beyonce! Bette Davis said, “Just do it. There’s never a shortcut in anybody’s business. It takes a lot of years to say “You’ve made it”. It takes 15-20 years

That’s why it’s so important to me to work with kind people and find other members of my tribe. I am forever blessed for the true people who’ve joined me on this ride. Special shout out and thank you to my crazy big beautiful Italian family and true friends for their constant acceptance and support!!! You have my heart.


Contact Info:

● Website: https://www.gerrymastrolia.com/

● Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/verygerrynyc/

● Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/verygerry94

● Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/user/MrGerryMastrolia


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Art is Freedom: And That's An Awful Lot of Responsibility

We all know the quote ad nauseam. With great power comes great responsibility. And before Cliff Robertson portrayed Uncle Ben in Sam Raimi’s 2002 Spider-Man, a variation was uttered as the closing narration in Amazing Fantasy #15 in 1962. Of course, the idea extends throughout the centuries. The French have a phrase for it: la noblesse oblige, which emphasizes the idea that nobility extends beyond entitlement, demanding people who hold high status carry out their social responsibilities.

And indeed, artists are free to say what they like. Nowadays we might face social firing squads but to me this pales in comparison to the literal firing squads artists once faced in the not so distant past. Not that violence can’t bubble up when one speaks their truth; i.e. Salman Rushdie. How far we are willing to go for our art and our truth is a different conversation altogether but for the most part, we live in a time and place where a significant degree of tolerance is habitual. Ideally this convention continues to hold strong.

And because of this linguistic and creative freedom, artists hold much sway in the idea landscape of our shared reality. We influence society. We influence trends, values, and ways of life. We influence the way in which individuals see the world and perhaps even navigate through it. Artists are akin to subjective journalists, correspondents who go into the conflict zones of culture and report back through art.

While history books tell you what happened, we tell you how it felt. That is our function, to look at the world from a different perspective in an attempt to understand one another in a new way.

We can say whatever we want however we want. And that, my friends, is an awful lot of responsibility that we should not take lightly.

I remember seeing an Off-Off Broadway showcase a few years back. I believe it was 2018. One of the pieces was about a brother and sister arguing over the brother’s new girlfriend – who happened to be a Trump supporter. It was an intriguing play but I recall a pit in my stomach forming as I realized the girlfriend was never going to make an entrance. Her voice, and by extension, all such voices, were silenced. This struck me as the cardinal sin of theatre despite my personal disdain for both the man and his behaviors. It was a blasphemous artistic decision. While I happened to be politically aligned with the siblings in the play, I realized we had gotten to the point where we were writing out characters we didn’t agree with or couldn’t comprehend. The latter is probably the most striking validity. And this example is, of course, a microcosm of our current scene at large.

I started to wonder if we were insulating ourselves. Had we created our own bubble to the point where we dared not go outside it? What might it mean if we did start to understand such characters and therefore such people…?

I go to plays all the time. I also go to poetry readings. Art, to me, is one of the most important facets of my life. It is, after all, along with science, a needed bastion for any pursuit of truth and compassion. Yet over and over I kept feeling that we were preaching to the choir – preaching to ourselves.

Thespians were preaching to theatergoers. And poets were preaching to poets. And the non-artists in the crowd already agreed with us. For the most part.

We reveled in our like-mindedness. We felt protected, secured, and comfortable in our shared opinions and safe spaces.

It felt as if we were in a metaphoric bubble, both encapsulated and blinded. Ignorance became trapped in virtue. We were blissfully stuck in the conformity of our ways.

They say great art does not answer questions – it provokes them. I had suddenly realized I had not seen new pieces of great art, by this mantra, in quite some time.

My acting training has undoubtedly influenced the way I interact with the world. I tend to view situations through the lens of objective and obstacle (thanks a lot Stanislavsky 🙄). When I engage in a polemical conversation or create a piece of art, I ask myself: what am I trying to do? And more importantly, what is the best way for me to reach my objective? What strategies should I impose and implement in order for me to put my objective in the strongest position possible? And the thing about objectives is that the best ones aren’t actually about you. It’s about what you want or need from the other person.

As long as I am also open and listening truthfully, I have often found this to be a good starting point and I wonder what would change if this became a bit more of the norm.

Even while writing this I fear readers might misconstrue what I’m trying to say. One should always express their most passionate and contentious truths, feelings, experiences, and opinions. But as the old adage goes, it’s not what you say but how you say it.

Otherwise, what you are saying becomes self-serving and subsequently self-defeating; you will reach and affect fewer people as a result. And what good does that do?

I suppose it seems only reasonable that I should brainstorm some sort of solution if I am brash enough to point out our plausible flaws. I think the contemporary creative who wishes to bring awareness to issues that warrant attention needs to engage a bit more in the formation of a plan of action (myself included). We need to get better at the skillful use of a stratagem. How can we reach those who we feel truly need to hear what we have to say? How do we do that without sermonizing, without being ostentatious, pedagogic, pedantic, or as didactic as this very sentence? And after we figure that out, what is the best way to communicate to them? What cultural language do they speak? What values do they hold? What tends to move them? Adjust accordingly. And think about the best form and format this food for thought will be served on that would allow them to best digest it. I realize this sounds somewhat manipulative. But I think it’s actually quite the opposite. It’s showcasing a degree of consideration while putting to use your most persuasive appeals in good faith.

When I think of a narrative “political filmmaker” who is also considered an activist, the first name that pops into my mind is Oliver Stone. And I think of this quote of his:

“You cannot approach history unless you have empathy for the person

you may hate. We can’t judge people as only ‘bad’ or ‘good’. [Adolf

Hitler] is an easy scapegoat throughout history and it’s been used

cheaply. He’s the product of a series of actions. It’s cause and effect.”

It’s a harsh reality. But there is much truth here. And this seems to be a very difficult aim to achieve when “blocking” people digitally and then by extension in every other way, takes nothing more than the click of a button. And while I don’t necessarily consider myself a transcendentalist, I, for one, do not wish to live in a world where half of the population cannot understand the other half. I hold out hope that Jean-Jacques Rousseau was right and goodness is an inherent quality of human beings. Then again, these days, I simply hold out hope that we can agree on what goodness actually is and what it looks like.

A colleague and I were recently discussing whether or not every creative endeavor could thoroughly be viewed through a political lens and indeed it feels as if anything can be made to be extremely political in our day and age. But the most effective political pieces of art are not ubiquitously political. They’re personal. The political is the residual of real lives. That is where the power to truly create empathy, understanding, and change stems from. And that might just be the best way to maximize advocacy in the arts.

But then again – what do I know!? I say this in the least sarcastic manner. I am but one voice in an ongoing conversation as no piece of writing exists in a vacuum. I ask myself how this very article contributes something new and honestly perhaps it is best viewed as a gentle but poignant reminder.

Art is a conversation. Not an exhortation.

Onwards and Upwards, Always,

G